Scrolling till Enlightenment

Yesterday, late in the afternoon, after a sumptuous lunch, I was doing nothing (i.e. scrolling reels). I came across Shakespeare’s quote from King Lear

I paused to reflect – Am I doing something or doing nothing? I started to feel a bit uneasy & guilty. However, the next reel raised my spirit.

I relaxed on reading that. It was very sound advice but it lasted only a few reels until I came across Henry David Thoreau.

I had to read that a few times before it sank in. Having nothing to do, I must still do something. What could that be? As I was reflecting on what to do, I got the answer on the 12th reel.

Zen sayings have a magical effect. They stop your thinking and make you wonder. I couldn’t agree more. Everything happens on its own. Who am I to do something?

Energized by that I now aimed for perfection. However just then Robert Schuller, the author of ‘Tough Times Never Last but Tough People Do’ pitched in

Oh. Is it so? Doubts started to creep in about my doing nothing even though I did it perfectly. How can one handle such criticism? As I browsed through reels striving to achieve clarity. Aristotle made an appearance and helped me find inner peace by pointing out in a typically Greek way

I thought to myself that there must be some truth to his advice since no one criticized him for so many centuries for putting the Earth in the center of the Universe. I continued scrolling further…

Even before I could figure out what that ‘SOMETHING’ to do was…

I thought I finally found that ‘SOMETHING’ to do – ‘NOTHING’!

In a way the previous two quotes seemed to cancel each other. I wonder what Keillor and Lounsbrough would have discussed over a cup of coffee.

But I don’t like to regret my actions later. What if I was supposed to DO SOMETHING but I did NOTHING. Or what if I was supposed to DO NOTHING but did SOMETHING? Wouldn’t it be a disaster?

To hell with that.

Things were really getting heated up (My phone was also feeling warm in my hands). It was like nearing the climax of a mystery. Anytime now it would become crystal clear what I needed to do.

To Do or Not To do That is the Question!

The anticipation brought me to Warren Buffet, arguably the greatest ‘INVESTOR OF ALL TIME’ [unlike me]

I was going to settle on that as the final word when I heard my wife shout from the other room

I had asked you in the morning to get some fruits and vegetables. DID YOU GET IT?

In that moment I got enlightened.

The Buddha Speaks on No-Self

One of the central teachings of the Buddha is that of No-Self. This teaching appears in the Anatta-lakkhana Sutta, which means the signs of no-self. Atta is pali word for Atma so Anatta is Anatman in Sanskrit, signifying no-soul or no-self. This teaching went against the grain of existing understanding that every person has an enduring ever-lasting soul which dies and is born again into a new body.

In the Anatta-lakkhana Sutta, the Buddha says: Form is not the self. If the form (of your body) were really the self or the soul, then it would not be a cause of suffering, of pain. Further, if it were really one’s soul or self, one could say – let my form is such. But since form is not self, it is a cause of suffering and you have no control on it.

The Buddha then goes on to say the same for feelings, mental formations, volition and consciousness, the other four aggregates which make up an individual. One by one he refutes each aggregate as the self.

The individual is composed of the aggregates but there is nothing permanent in any aggregate and hence, no self to be found in the individual.

The story goes on to claim that the 5 bhikkhus who listened to this teaching achieved the discernment into the non-selflessness of phenomena. It is possible, those bhikkhus were already wise enough to perceive this truth but for someone who likes to question and doubt, the Q&A session at the end of any talk is the most important part where he can clarify his own understanding by asking questions to the speaker.

Let’s assume, someone in the audience, has some doubts on what the Buddha said. Here is how the conversation might proceed.

Questioner: You say that there is no self. Then does it imply that it is ok to kill someone? You are not killing anyone if there is no one to kill, isn’t it?

Buddha: I say phenomena is made up of aggregates. If you consider non-living things like stones or mud, then there is only a form aggregate. There is no feeling, mental formations, volition or consciousness which can be combined into mind. There is no mind for a stone, only form. You can break a stone into pieces. There is no self in it. No problem. Now consider a living being or we can say sentient being because it has both body (form) and mind (mental formation, feelings, volition and consciousness). If you inflict a wound on such a living being whether human or animal, it is bound to create painful feelings, thoughts of fear, various mental formations like anger or revenge. If you hurt the living being to such an extent that the aggregates which were a part of the being are no longer functioning in harmony, we can say you have killed that being. However, there is no reason to assume a permanent soul or self in this case also. I always say that no living being wants to suffer and you must not make any living being suffer.

Questioner: It may be so. But ultimately, there is no one to kill or there is no one who suffers. Just a re-configuration of aggregates. So I am not clear about the implications of no-self.

Buddha: At a deeper level, no-self is a view, a mindset, a realization, an awakening. If you do not see it, you will see a self. You will see other persons and you will assume their agency. Being affected by someone’s words or actions, you may generate anger or fear which in turn might rouse you to harm them or kill them. However, if you see no-self, if you have the view of no-self, you will not see anyone. You will not ascribe agency to people. Words and actions of others might develop feelings and mental formations in you but you will clearly see them as impermanent aggregates only. This view prevents feelings from cascading into anger, rage to generate enough energy to harm and kill another being. I often give this example that if you are walking in a forest at dusk when visibility is low and you come across a snake on the ground, you may want to stamp on it to kill it. However when the sun rises and you see clearly, it was only a piece of rope not a snake, you will realize your folly.

Questioner: I understood. Thank you. But what if you mistook a snake for a rope? Wouldn’t the snake not bite you?

Buddha: I never said to walk without being alert. If you notice something, check it out or avoid it. In the case you are bitten, realize you are bitten and do whatever you can to save yourself. There is no magic that’s going to happen if you know about no-self.

Questioner: Ok, I got it. I understood what is no-self. I will live accordingly.

Buddha: Beware. It is not enough to just take the teaching of no-self and apply it blindly. You cannot take it as an excuse to either harm others or become less mindful. All actions have consequences. Aggregates behave as per the laws of nature. Water will flow, fire will burn and so on. Once you see aggregates for what they are – impermanent and fleeting with no controller, you will see they are doing their thing. You will attain wisdom. Till the time you see a self, a controller, a someone who is doing things, you will experience suffering. Please investigate deeply.

Questioner: Thank you so much.

Going Off On a Tangent

Have you ever felt like life is just going around in circles? The routines, the struggles, the repeating thought patterns, the same troublesome emotions, the same “new beginnings” that end up eventually in the same rut that one feels the need to start again.

At first, being in a pattern can feel safe, it is familiar, predictable, and gives a sense of rhythm. But after a while, the safety of the pattern turns into the suffocation of repetition.

Going in circles is deceptive. You feel you are moving but are always in the same place. You feel the momentum of motion, but in reality, you are orbiting the same thoughts, patterns, and habits. The scenery changes slightly – new job titles, different faces, altered circumstances – but the essence of your life remains the same.

Faster or Slower, it’s still the Circle

When we notice this pattern, our instinct is often to change the speed. We think: “If I push harder, go faster, and achieve more, I’ll break free.” Or sometimes the opposite: “If I slow down, practice patience, and let things unfold, maybe I’ll escape the monotony.”

But here’s the hard truth: whether you speed up or slow down, you are still moving in the same circle. Velocity does not change trajectory. The only way out of a circle is not acceleration or deceleration, it is deviation. You have to go off on a tangent.

The Tangent

A tangent is radical. It does not continue the curve; it breaks away from it. It looks like rebellion, disruption, or even recklessness from inside the circle. And that is exactly what makes it powerful.

But here’s what we often underestimate: going off on a tangent is not easy. There is a strong gravitational pull that keeps us tied to the center, the comfort of familiarity, the approval of others, the inertia of habit. Breaking away feels like tearing yourself from an invisible tether. You may step out briefly, but very soon, the force of conformity pulls you back.

That’s why tangents are often short-lived. People quit their jobs, leave a relationship, or embark on a bold new path, but before long, they find themselves in another circle that looks strikingly like the one they left. The old cycle has been replaced by a new one, and the illusion of freedom doesn’t last.

Tangent as both Freedom and Responsibility

From the perspective of the circle, a tangent looks like absolute freedom. You’ve escaped! You’re no longer bound to the endless loop. But once you are truly on the tangent, a deeper demand arises – the demand to see for yourself.

The circle gave you the comfort to close your eyes. It told you how to behave, what to expect, and what was acceptable. You did not have to think for yourself. The tangent offers no such guidance. It gives you freedom, but also the responsibility of discovery, of finding your own path. You cannot lean on the crowd anymore; you must rely on the integrity of your own mind.

This is what Ralph Waldo Emerson meant when he said:

Society everywhere is in Conspiracy
against every one of its members.
The virtue in most request is conformity.
Self-reliance is its aversion.
One who would gather immortal palms
must not be hindered by the name of goodness,
but must explore if it be goodness.
Nothing is at last sacred
but the integrity of your own mind.

The circle is society’s conspiracy of conformity. The tangent is self-reliance – the courage to explore goodness not as it is defined for you, but as you must discover for yourself.

The Hidden Trap: Circles Disguised as Tangents

There is another subtle danger here. Sometimes what looks like a tangent is just another circle waiting in disguise. You may think you’ve escaped by changing careers, moving cities, choosing a new partner or adopting new beliefs. But unless the movement is inwardly awake and conscious, it is easy to get trapped again – another orbit, another loop, another pattern.

The lesson here is that true tangents are not one-time events. They are not just about leaving a particular job, person, or place. They are about cultivating the courage to question, to step aside, to not be lulled into conformity every single day.

Being Always on a Tangent

To be truly free is to keep breaking the circles as they form. It means watching when you are being pulled back by habit or by society’s voice and daring, once again, to step out. Every day brings opportunities for tangents, small ones and large ones.

  • When you say no to a familiar but draining pattern, you’ve taken a tangent.
  • When you question a belief that everyone around you holds, you’ve taken a tangent.
  • When you dare to listen to your own integrity over collective approval, you’ve taken a tangent.

The point is not to escape once and be done with it once and for all, but to live in such a way that tangents become your mode of life. And to realize and accept that others might think you are crazy not to follow the path of the circle.

Breaking away from circles, going off on a tangent

So if your life feels like it’s going around in circles, recognize that speeding up or slowing down will not change the geometry. The only real move is to break away. And yes, it’s uncomfortable. Yes, it comes with the risk of being misunderstood. Yes, you may even end up in another circle. But in the act of choosing the tangent, you awaken to yourself.

Life’s vitality comes not from perfect routines or flawless circles, but from the courage to keep breaking them. The tangent is not just the way out, it is the way to be alive. The real point is not about going off on a tangent but to not get trapped in a circle.

P.S. The Illusion of the Circle and the Tangent

If you really investigate the circle, you will find it is not some solid structure that traps you. It is made only of people moving in circles, repeating patterns, conforming to expectations. The circle has no independent existence. It is only maintained because we keep walking on it, following others blindly. And so, while it seems difficult to break free, the truth is that nothing actually binds you. The circle dissolves the moment you become aware.

A Lesson from a Small Emotional Trigger

Yesterday afternoon, I dropped my daughter off at her guitar class and parked my car in front of a closed laundry shop. Since the class was an hour long, I settled in with a book as I waited.

About half an hour later, someone knocked on my window. I looked up to see a balding man in a loose shirt and trousers, with a stubble. In a loud, slightly annoyed tone he said: गाडी पुढे घे (move the car ahead).

For a moment, I was stunned. I wasn’t blocking anyone; I was parked at the kerb. Then I realized—he was the laundry shop owner, wanting to park his two-wheeler in front of his shop, and my car was in the way.

I moved the car a few feet forward, but I found myself unsettled. It wasn’t what he said, but how he said it. I kept thinking about it and soon realized: he said गाडी पुढे घे. What I had expected was गाडी पुढे घ्या.”

For those who know Marathi, the distinction is clear. घे is casual, often used with peers or those considered of lower status. घ्या, on the other hand, is polite and respectful, used for elders or those higher in status.

Why was I upset? Because I felt he hadn’t addressed me “politely.” Somewhere, unconsciously, I was thinking: I am a car owner, an educated person; surely, he should have the courtesy to use the proper words with me.

As I reflected further, I realized something uncomfortable. In my own interactions, I am polite to everyone—the maid at home, the building sweeper, the auto-rickshaw driver. I always use घ्या for strangers. And so, I expected the same courtesy in return.

But on thinking deeper, I recognized another truth. In Marathi, the casual घे is far more common in everyday speech, especially on the streets. For the shop owner, his language was normal and unfiltered. He wasn’t being rude—he was simply speaking the way he always does.

The real lesson here was not about language, but about triggers. If we aren’t aware of them, small things—like a single word—can upset us without our realizing why. But if we pause, observe our feelings, and trace them back to their source, we begin to see the trigger for what it is. And often, we see that the other person never intended to offend us at all. The sense of being offended is created because of our own tacit expectations.

So the next time you feel disturbed, pause and ask yourself: what exactly triggered me? Awareness is the first step to freedom.

Be aware. Be attentive. Be awake.

Les Misérables

Director: Billie August
Actors: Liam Neeson, Geoffrey Rush

This is one of the film adaptations of the classic novel Les Miserables by Victor Hugo. There are probably 10 or more movie adaptations of this marvellous novel. I have never got tired watching this movie. In fact, I have watched quite a few versions – the 1998 one starring Liam Neeson, one of my favourite actors as Jean Valjean, the 1978 version, the 1958 version and also the 2012 musical version starring Hugh Jackman and Russell Crowe.

Although it is a long and elaborate story and also considered one of the longest novels in history with 1800-1900 pages, Les Miserables is about how one genuine act of kindness and compassion can turn a bad man into a good man. The story is about how that good man, despite all the provocations throughout the story does not return to being bad again.

The story is set in Paris in the 19th century. Jean Valjean, a young man, gets caught by the police after he steals a loaf of bread for his starving family. For such a small offence he is sentenced to 5 years of rigorous imprisonment. He is relegated to breaking stones and doing hard labour. During his term, he tries to escape and is caught. Every time he is caught escaping his prison term is increased 4 years. He eventually spends 19 years in prison.

When he is released from prison, no one gives him any shelter because of his yellow passport which identifies him as an ex-convict. As he is sleeping outside, to his surprise, the benevolent Bishop of the church, invites him inside. The Bishop Myriel serves him food and also gives him a place to sleep.

Jean is utterly shocked with this behaviour yet decides to rob the valuables in the church during the night. He steals some silverware and runs away. However, he is caught and since the police recognize some of the items of the church, they bring him to the Bishop.

This is where the turning point of the story unfolds. Jean is sure he will be put into prison again. However, the Bishop very softly convinces the police that Jean is no thief. He had himself given all that silverware to Jean and asks the police to release him. After the police leave, the Bishop gives some more items to Jean saying he forgot to take those.

Jean does not understand this act of kindness. He was used to being treated unfairly. Imagine having spent 19 years in prison for stealing a loaf of bread. The Bishop tells him that with all that silverware, he has purchased his soul and now he must become a honest man.

Bishop: Now don’t forget, don’t ever forget, you’ve promised to become a new man.
Jean Valjean: Promise? Why, why are you doing this?
Bishop: Jean Valjean, my brother, you no longer belong to evil. With this silver, I have bought your soul. I’ve ransomed you from fear and hatred, and now I give you back to God.

The story then takes a jump forward and it is shown that Jean Valjean has truly made good use of the money and become a good man. He has also become the Mayor of a town. While it seems that life has changed for the good, his past catches up with him.

Inspector Javert develops a suspicion that the Mayor is actually Jean Valjean. He tries to keep an eye on him and follows him everywhere. At every turn, Jean tries to do good and at every other turn, Javert almost gets the evidence of him being Valjean. The story moves on and eventually at the end, as Javert was about to be killed by the revolutionaries, Jean Valjean asks for permission to do the needful. However, he takes Javert to a secluded location and sets him free.

It is now time for Javert to be shocked and surprised by this act of Jean Valjean. Despite all the hate that Javert carried for Valjean throughout the story, Valjean never lost his conscience and the promise he made to the Bishop to be a honest man. It is a powerful message.

Transformation of Being

Is it possible for someone to be transformed from a corrupt person to a true genuine human being? In mythology, the robber Valmiki became the sage Valmiki after his encounter with Narada. The story of Angulimala also demonstrates how a highway murderer got transformed into a monk after his meeting with the Buddha.

Evil begets evil and good begets good. Like Jean Valjean, we experience injustice in our lives most of the times. Other people do not treat us well, we get punished for things we have not done, we are not appreciated for our goodness. Experiencing such things, we also give the same treatment to others. Thus life becomes a suffering for all.

Once in a while, we experience some good person who treats us well, offers us something unexpected, does not punish us even though we have done wrong. We can feel the love and compassion in that moment. Yes, it does have a transforming effect in that moment.

However, the test of life is in how we behave and act once we are back within the general population. Was that a temporary transformation or does it have a lasting effect like the Bishop Myriel had on Jean Valjean. What state of mind do you want to live in? Constant hate or Loving forgiveness?

Watch Les Miserables and decide for yourself.

Gautam Buddha – His Life, Work, Thoughts and Current Relevance

The below is an essay I wrote for a competition organized by the Dhamma Bhavan Charitable Trust, Kolhapur in Jan 2025.

“Ehipassiko”

When people asked the Buddha to talk about his teachings, he used to say – Ehipassiko. This is how he invited people to experience what he taught. Ehipassiko is a pali word that means – Come and see for yourself. It means do not intellectualize or get caught in the verbal explanations. But if you follow the path you will experience the insights for yourself. Then there will be no need for any explanation because you will see the truth directly. It is like performing a scientific experiment with precise instructions that produces the expected results. The Buddha’s teaching is like a science of the mind.

The Buddha lived and taught some 2500 years ago. He walked from place to place, village to village, teaching all those who showed an interest and inclination to learn. He taught with great skill, adjusting his teaching to individuals by considering their capabilities. He taught with great love and compassion by employing stories, analogies, and metaphors to convey his insights. Those who understood did not have any qualms about leaving their homes and families to join his Sangha of wandering monks. On the other hand, there were many who became lay followers by adopting the given precepts.

Even after the Buddha’s death, his teaching continued to influence millions. It has spread far and wide all over the world taking different outer forms like the Theravada of Thailand, Burma and Vietnam, Mahayana of Tibet, Chan of China and Zen of Japan.

The Buddha’s Doubt

Given the popularity of Buddhism, it would seem that the Buddha had an easy time sharing his teaching with people. But the fact is that when the Buddha got his enlightenment, at first he was elated that he finally got what he was seeking and he would go and share it with others. However, when he reflected on what he had discovered, he thought to himself – This insight that I have acquired is so subtle, so nuanced, that it will be difficult to convey it to people. They will misunderstand it or miss the point altogether and I will get so frustrated and exhausted trying my best to explain it to people. So let me not teach anything.

It is said that the God Brahma requested the Buddha to teach nonetheless. So the Buddha reviewed the situation with his insight and realized that people have different abilities. There are some who are ready to receive his teachings while there are others who will grasp the meaning with a little bit of practice and there will be others who will need a still longer time. So he started his teaching campaign – also known as setting the wheel of Dhamma in motion.

Even to this day, people express their allegiance to Buddhism by uttering the following.

Buddham Saranam Gacchami
(I take refuge in the Buddha)
Dhammam Saranam Gacchami
(I take refuge in the Dhamma)
Sangham Saranam Gacchami
(I take refuge in the Sangha)

Thanks to the work of multiple scholars, monks and lay people, today we have a well-documented body of teachings of the Buddha called the Sutta Pitaka which includes 34 long discourses, 152 middle length discourses, 7,762 connected discourses, 9,557 numerical discourses and numerous short discourses including the Dhammapada and Jataka. This is just the Theravada literature. There are the Mahayana sutras and the Zen sutras which were contributed by later Buddhist masters.

For a student who wishes to understand what the Buddha taught, there is a life time of material available to go through. But will going through all the sutras help a diligent student to understand the Buddha? Only to some extent. Without getting a personal experience of enlightenment, it is not possible to truly understand what the Buddha discovered. And this is probably the reason that the Buddha had doubts about whether people would understand his teachings.

So what exactly did the Buddha discover when he got enlightened? What was it that he thought it was difficult to convey to others? To appreciate this, first we must know what he was seeking and why he was seeking it.

Siddharth’s Motivation

Gautama the Buddha was born as Siddharth, son of King Shuddhodana of the Shakya clan at the foothills of present day Nepal. At the time of his birth, Sage Asita made a prophesy that Siddharth would either become a great King or a great monk. His father naturally wanted him to be a great king, not a monk. He thought if he brought up Siddharth in the greatest of luxuries and kept him away from the harsh realities of life, then Siddharth would naturally incline towards being a King.

Siddharth grew up in the best of comforts that a prince could get in his time. His father built three different palaces for him – one for the summer season, one for the rainy season and one for the winter season. Siddharth was always surrounded by merriment, dancing girls, choicest of food and servants to get him whatever he wanted. Siddharth was educated in various fields of knowledge and became skilled in the use of swords and bows. He got married to the beautiful Yashodara and had a son named Rahula.

Life was going well for Siddharth except for one thing. He was never allowed to go out in the city. He was always confined to the palaces where his father had ensured that there were no old, sick or sad people, no talk of death and unhappiness which might influence him to think of becoming a monk. His father desperately wanted him to be a king. But secretly Siddharth  was longing to see the world beyond his palace. Whenever he asked for permission, it was denied.

As the legend goes, one day Siddharth slipped out of the palace unnoticed with his trusted charioteer Channa for a tour of the city. This excursion turned out to be a life-changing day for him. The life outside the city was nothing that Siddharth had expected. It was a shock for him that there is no merriment or enjoyment outside. People are working hard and doing their jobs. They also looked much poorer and different than the people in the palace. He saw sick people, people in pain; he saw old people with wrinkled skin and grey hair, toothless, bent at the back, walking with the support of a stick; he also saw a funeral procession with a dead man, with other people crying and wailing. He could not understand why people become ill, old and die.

When Channa confirmed that even Siddharth will one day become old and die and there was no escaping that, it was very disturbing for him. Siddharth could not sleep in peace after that experience. He could not imagine that his wife and son would also become old and die. What was the point of living in merry if death is the ultimate destiny? He kept remembering the sight of a monk, with a calm face and peaceful countenance, sitting in meditation under a tree. Channa had explained that the monk was trying to find a solution to life and death. Siddharth immediately knew that he must become like that monk. But he also knew that no one will allow him to follow that path. His father wanted him to be a king like him. Siddharth’s desire for this search was so strong that one night, he left his sleeping wife and son and escaped into the forest in search of teachers who would show him the way to salvation.

Unbelievable or Plausible?

There are some points in the story of Siddharth that seem quite unbelievable.

  1. How is it possible that a young man of 29 years never became ill himself? No cold, no cough, no fever? How come he never saw his father becoming older and he himself growing from a child to a young man?
  2. How is it possible that he did not know about death? We know how he saved a swan who was hurt with an arrow shot by his cousin Devadatta. The swan would have died if Siddharth did not tend to it. Further if Siddharth was trained in the art of swordsmanship and archery, was it merely as a sport but not for use in a war to kill others? As a kshatriya, the talk of war and killing would be quite a common thing in conversations.
  3. How can a person be so selfish so as to leave his wife and young son in pursuit of his own desire for truth?

These may seem unbelievable but not implausible. For instance, consider a detective who is searching for the culprit. The detective has all the clues with him yet he is unable to figure out who the culprit is. Yet in a rare moment of insight and clarity, all the seemingly unconnected clues connect in his mind in a way that leaves no doubt as to who committed the crime. For the detective, this is a Eureka moment, a moment of illumination. We can call it a moment of enlightenment.

Even so for Siddharth, although he may have seen illness, suffering and death before, all the aspects connected for him in that moment of clarity and insight that made him consider his own old age and death. It also gave rise to a desire to seek out a solution after seeing the monk working on it. It was as if all the clues connected for him and showed him a direction to follow.

Whether his act of leaving family was a selfish act or for the greater good is a matter of judgement. If he had chosen to remain and be a king, it would have been a different story altogether. Moreover, as we will see, Siddharth’s previous births all point to his desire to become a Buddha and hence the particular situation in which he acted is not of great consequence. What is important is to remember that the Buddha went in search for a solution for death.

What should rather be truly unbelievable is that the Buddha actually found the solution. Most people cannot believe or even understand that there can be a solution for death, that one can go beyond death. But that is what the Buddha discovered. That is what made Siddharth a Buddha. Buddha means the one who knows. And because what he realized was so subtle, so against the common knowledge that he doubted the ability of people to understand his teaching.

The Struggle for Enlightenment

After Siddharth left his home, he immediately approached the best teachers of his time. He quickly learnt and mastered all the meditation techniques which were taught by those teachers. However, he was not satisfied because he did not get the answers he was looking for. So, refusing the offer of his teachers to continue to stay and teach others, he kept moving on to other teachers. Eventually he realized he must find his own way.

The prevalent understanding of the human being in the time of Siddharth was that each person has an everlasting soul which is pure but due to the desires of the body, the soul (Atman) does not get the chance to meet the Universal soul (Brahman). When a person dies, the soul migrates to another body just like we remove one set of clothes and wear another. Moksha was the idea that the Atman will merge with the Brahman in a moment of raised consciousness and attain liberation. However, it is prevented by the continuous actions or Karma that the body produces. Hence the body must be tamed. To achieve this, exrteme ascetic practices were common among those who were seeking moksha.

Siddharth decided to break the world record for ascetic practices. If this was the way, he will go all the way till the end. So he devoted himself to the most extreme asceticism possible for a human being. It included eating only one grain of rice in a day, breathing only one breath per hour. His resolve was strong and he could practice such austerities to the amazement of his fellow seekers. But eventually his body became like a skeleton and he became very weak. Moreover, even after several years of such austerities he did not get any satisfactory answers to his questions. One day when he almost slipped and drowned in the river, he thought that if he died without finding the answer, it would be a wasted effort. So he must try something else other than working on the body.

Siddharth turned his attention to the mind and found a natural progress in this direction. Very soon he started to get into deeper and deeper states of concentration. With each deeper state of concentration, he was able to calm his mind and get insights never got before while he was punishing his body. With this success and increasing energy, Siddharth, on that full moon night took the following vow and sat in meditation.

“Willingly, let only my skin, sinews, and bones remain, and let the flesh and blood dry up in my body, but I will not relax my energy so long as I have not attained what can be attained by manly strength, by manly energy, by manly exertion”

During that night of intense meditation, Siddharth overcame all the cankers of the mind, all the distracting thoughts, avoided all the traps of delusion and made the final breakthrough. On becoming enlightened, he uttered the following words – 

“O house builder, you have been seen; You shall not build the house again. Your rafters have been broken up, Your ridgepole is demolished too.”

What is Enlightenment

Completing a 6 year rigorous effort for seeking the truth, these words somehow fall short of conveying the tremendous achievement of attaining liberation. But obviously it is a metaphorical description of what happened in Siddharth’s mind.

Enlightenment literally means lighting up. When there is light, the darkness is dispelled, and you can see everything clearly.

In the above metaphor, the house is the personal identity or self of the person. Siddharth clearly saw how he constructs the notion of “him”self with all the supporting ideas (rafters) and the core idea (ridgepole) that makes up the “illusory” self. Once that concept is blown away and seen clearly for what it is, what remains is just enlightenment – just light, no shadows. What it means is that the identification with the body-mind aggregates drop away.

This is the core of the Buddha’s enlightenment – the self, what we call us or ourselves, I or me, is a belief or more precisely an identification. The self or I does not exist independently of the body with which there is the identification.

As mentioned above the prevalent understanding was the existence of a permanent pure soul which exists independent of the body and which takes rebirth in different bodies. Buddha refutes this. And he says Ehipassiko – come and see for yourself. He gives a method of meditation and even points out all the milestones that come up on the way of deeper concentration till the very end where you can experience the same realization as the Buddha. It is a repeatable process just like a scientific experiment.

The Implications of Enlightenment

The person who ponders over the implications of this idea, without dismissing it as naïve, will surely appreciate its tremendous significance. Because we are all afflicted by the identification with the self, it requires a keen non-judgmental eye to see through this illusion we have created for ourselves. Simply “getting it” can turn out to be a moment of enlightenment, also called Satori or Kensho in Japanese.

The Buddha says that the world is characterized by 3 things – Anicca, Dukkha and Anatta. Anicca means impermanence – that nothing is permanent. Everything is in a state of flux. Dukkha means suffering or rather a sense of dissatisfaction. This is also the basis of his teaching on the Four Noble Truths – suffering, the cause of suffering, the cessation of cause of suffering and the path leading to the cessation of the cause of suffering. Finally, Anatta means no-self. When we say every “thing” is in a state of flux, Anatta reminds us there is no “thing”. And no “thing” does not mean nothing.

With this double strike off, the mind which is constantly grasping for things, for something to hold on to, now has nothing to hold on to, nothing to grasp and it falls away. Then it is said that you see things “as they are”.

This leads us to the big implication of no-self, which is no birth, no death. If there is no thing, no person, then there is no one who is born and no one who is dying. In the Dhammapada, the Buddha says – Mindfulness is the way to the Deathless (Nibbana); unmindfulness is the way to Death. Those who are mindful do not die; those who are not mindful are as if already dead.

In the teaching of the dependent origination, the Buddha explains how one thing leads to another in an endless chain – how ignorance of the real nature of the self leads to mental formations, how mental formations create consciousness, how consciousness distinguishes shapes and gives names to the forms, how that creates the sense bases which then get into contact with those objects  generating feelings, how feelings of like and dislike create desire, how desire creates attachment, how attachment snowballs into becoming which leads to birth and once born, old age and death are sure to follow. So long as ignorance is present, the cycle continues on. Only by cutting the root delusion of the self can the entire chain of becoming and suffering come to an end.

When asked what the Buddha taught, he always used to say that he only showed a path to the end of suffering. The ending of suffering does not mean the disappearance of the body-mind but only the detachment from what happens to the body-mind. The body-mind follows its own process but when there is no identification, then there is neither like or dislike.

And thus Siddharth achieved his goal of finding a solution to the biggest issue in front of any human being – DEATH. No wonder he hesitated to teach because such a declaration might create confusion & misunderstanding. Yet, it is not impossible for sincere seekers of the truth to come to the same realization.

Buddha’s Teaching and Skillful Means

Having a solution but not able to share it with others would be really unfortunate. But Buddha had a lot of compassion for others, especially after enlightenment, when he could see clearly how people were suffering needlessly. Whatever he taught, he ensured that it was to the level of understanding of his listeners. He would teach differently to his closest monks, differently to Kings, differently to common people and differently to followers of other contemporary teachers. With his examples, anecdotes from his past life (Jataka stories) and metaphors, he was able to connect and win over increasing numbers of people to follow his path. He did not expect people to blindly follow him as an authority but encouraged them to first understand and only then accept.

He warned – Do not rely on oral tradition, or on the lineage of teachers, or on holy scriptures, or on abstract logic. Do not place blind trust in impressive personalities or in venerated gurus, but examine the issue for yourselves. When you know for yourselves that something is unwholesome and harmful, then you should reject it. And when you know for yourselves that something is wholesome and beneficial, then you should accept it and put it into practice.

The Noble Eightfold Path, designed by the Buddha, is the sure shot way to attaining the insight of the Buddha.

  1. Right View
  2. Right Thought
  3. Right Speech
  4. Right Action
  5. Right Livelihood
  6. Right Effort
  7. Right Mindfulness
  8. Right Concentration

It starts with right view and right thought which are the preparation for the mind for attaining insight. Right speech, right action and right livelihood help to simplify one’s life to an extent such that it gives rise to calmness and avoids any anxiety and stress. Finally with the right effort, right mindfulness and right concentration, one can, with practice achieve the same insight as the Buddha.

The Buddha declared that if a person sincerely practices mindfulness for 7 years, he can attain the highest knowledge here and now. He goes on to say that if one practices for even 6 years or 5 years, 4 years, 3 years, 2 years, 1 year or just 7 months, 6 months, 5 months, 4 months, 3 months, 2 months, 1 month, or even a week, he can experience the highest knowledge here and now.

Buddha placed the greatest emphasis on the cultivation of mindfulness. He says – This is the only way, monks, for the purification of beings, for the overcoming of sorrow and lamentation, for the destruction of suffering and grief, for reaching the right path, for the attainment of Nibbana, namely, the four foundations of mindfulness. The four foundations include the contemplation of the body, feeling, mental objects and consciousness.

The Buddha is considered to be one of the greatest teachers of mankind, simply because of his skill in using the most appropriate means for the student that will open his eyes. The stories of Kisa Gotami, Angulimala, Kasappa and others amply demonstrate Buddha’s skill as a teacher.

Buddha’s Relevance Today

So the question arises whether the Buddha only talked about Nibbana, which the ending of the cycle of birth and death and how relevant that is in our daily life?

If one observes the daily life, it is a constant struggle for survival, whether one is self-employed or running a business or working for someone else. People experience pain and suffering in their relationships. Parents, like Shuddhodana, are striving to give a comfortable life to their children yet in general, people live a less than satisfactory life. How then can Buddha’s insights help to alleviate such suffering? Does everyone have to first meditate and get the same insights before living the daily life?

In the time of the Buddha, many people renounced their household life and joined the Sangha of wandering monks to follow his teachings. They begged for food and devoted the rest of their time to mindfulness and meditation. Even today in countries like Thailand, Myanmar and Vietnam, the same forest tradition is followed. Their goal is to become an Arahat. The Tibetans on the other hand questioned whether it was necessary to leave one’s house to attain realization. They placed emphasis on developing the compassionate mindset of Bodhisattva, who vows not to attain personal Nibbana, until he helps all other beings attain realization. In China and Japan, the Buddha’s teaching evolved in to the approaches of Chan and Zen.

Zen is said to be a special transmission outside the scriptures, without reliance on words and explanations, a direct pointing to the human mind. Zen masters are known to use unorthodox methods to get their students to breakthrough their conceptual minds. Students have to work on finding a solution to questions like “What is the sound of one hand clapping?” or “What was your original face before you were born?”.

What is the meaning of such nonsense questions? Know that while things are in a constant state of flux with no beginning or ending, we through our minds create a start point and an end point with our concepts. For instance a matchstick burns out and becomes ash. Form has changed from the matchstick to ash. However we can say that the matchstick died. We extend the same idea to living beings also. Birth and death are merely concepts. There is no underlying substance that is born or dies. There is only everlasting change of appearances.

The findings of Quantum Physics with its paradoxical implications on the nature of reality resonates with the Buddha’s teachings. Neils Bohr, one of the pioneers of Quantum physics said – Everything we call real is made of things that cannot be regarded as real.

So what the Buddha really points out is that people are mistaking what is impermanent for being permanent and what is harmful for beneficial. Under the delusion of something tangible, they seek material things, cling to life and get addicted to fleeting experiences.

In the movie the Truman show, Truman is in a life size reality show where since the time he was born, he was surrounded by actors. His whole life was being filmed as a reality show for the audience. He initially mistook the acting for real relationships. But one day, he starts to doubt his reality and begins his search for the truth.

Similarly when one deeply realizes one’s delusion, one can be equanimous in the ups and downs of life. Being equanimous, one can experience real inner joy, be friendly towards others and have compassion towards those who are not yet free from this delusion. Thus one can live a life free of unnecessary mental anguish.

The Buddha gives the following four assurances if one lives the righteous life based on the Noble Eightfold Path

  1. If there is a life after death, and if the law of karma is effective, you will be reborn in a great place
  2. If there is no life after death, and even if the law of karma is not effective, you will still be able to live this present life in peace and harmony
  3. If evil things happen to you, then because you don’t have evil thoughts, you will not experience any suffering
  4. If evil things don’t happen to you, then you will anyway live a good life.

Listening to the Buddha’s teachings gives tremendous peace of mind, encourages one to live right and points one to the goal of human life.

The Buddha gave the 5 precepts – refrain from killing or harming any living being, refrain from taking what is not given, refrain from sexual misconduct or the misuse of the senses, refrain from lying, abusive speaking or exaggerating and refrain from alcohol and other intoxicating drugs. These are the basis for living a happy life. The purpose of these rules is not to impose limitations but to help the mind to settle down and become calm. If someone kills another or steals something or drinks alcohol and tells lies, such a person’s mind will be agitated and will not find peace because it will be flooded with thoughts. Such a mind cannot discover the truth about oneself and life. Similarly, just following the teachings and precepts without striving for enlightenment will not be the best use of this life’s opportunity.

Remember that the Buddha said that his teaching is like a raft. You can use it to cross the river of suffering, but you must not get so attached to it that you carry it around with you. There is no use just learning how a raft is built and how it floats on water, but you must use it to cross the river of your mind’s suffering.

Buddha’s teaching can never lose its relevance and significance in any age for any person.

May all beings be happy
May all beings be free of suffering
May all beings achieve enlightenment.

The Big Picture: A Transformative Experience

The term “The Big Picture” refers to the holistic view of a situation or idea, allowing individuals to step back from the minutiae and grasp the entirety of a concept. This shift in perspective often leads to a profound change in how we perceive and interact with the world. When we see the Big Picture, we don’t just see different things—we see the same things differently.

Let us see some examples

 1. The Jigsaw Puzzle Analogy

Imagine assembling a jigsaw puzzle. The individual pieces are scattered before you, and while each piece is important, what truly guides you is the image of the completed puzzle on the box. Without this reference, the task becomes daunting and time-consuming. The Big Picture, in this case, acts as a roadmap, enabling you to see how each piece fits into the whole.

A Jigsaw Puzzle

2. Strategic Planning in Business

When crafting a company’s strategy, focusing solely on internal products or processes is insufficient. A successful strategy requires an understanding of the broader landscape: industry trends, competitor actions, technological advancements, and evolving customer preferences. Ignoring the Big Picture limits your ability to adapt and innovate, rendering your strategy ineffective.
 
3. Life’s Challenges and the Big Picture

Proverbs like *”Every failure is a stepping stone to success”* remind us to view setbacks through a wider lens. Failing an exam, facing rejection, or enduring a health crisis may feel like final outcomes, but life offers countless opportunities for growth and success. Similarly, losing a job or a loved one can be reframed: perhaps it opens doors to self-employment, pursuing passions, or building emotional resilience.
 
4. The Akbar and Birbal Story

A classic tale from Akbar’s court illustrates the power of the Big Picture. A man challenged the court to make a stick smaller without touching it. While others were stumped, Birbal placed a larger stick beside the original, making it appear smaller in comparison. This simple yet ingenious solution demonstrates how stepping back from the details can reveal creative solutions.
 
5. The Nine-Dot Riddle

The riddle of connecting nine dots using straight lines without lifting your pen is another example. The solution requires thinking beyond the confines of the dots’ arrangement, symbolizing the need to transcend perceived limitations. This is a hallmark of Big Picture thinking.

Big Picture Thinking vs. Lateral Thinking

While some may equate Big Picture thinking with lateral thinking, the two are distinct. Lateral thinking is a subset of Big Picture thinking, focusing on creative problem-solving by approaching challenges from unconventional angles. However, Big Picture thinking goes further—it brings about a fundamental transformation in how we perceive the world. It’s not just about solving problems differently; it’s about seeing the world differently.
 
The Blind Men and the Elephant
 
The ancient parable of the six blind men and the elephant beautifully encapsulates the limitations of a narrow perspective. Each man touches a different part of the elephant—the trunk, tail, or side—and describes it as a snake, rope, or wall, respectively. Their individual perceptions, while accurate in isolation, fail to capture the entirety of the elephant. Only by seeing the whole can one truly understand its nature. This story underscores the transformative power of the Big Picture.
 
The Astronaut’s Perspective
 
One of the most profound examples of Big Picture thinking comes from astronaut Edgar Mitchell. Upon viewing Earth from space, he experienced a profound shift in understanding: 

“There was a startling recognition that the nature of the universe was not as I had been taught… I not only saw the connectedness, I felt it… I was overwhelmed with the sensation of physically and mentally extending out into the cosmos.”

From space, national borders and cultural divisions vanish, replaced by a unified view of our planet. This perspective challenges and often replaces previous beliefs, leaving astronauts fundamentally changed. They return to Earth with a new understanding of interconnectedness, not through words or lectures, but through a single, transformative glimpse of the Big Picture.
 
Carl Sagan’s Insight
 
Pale Blue Dot is a photograph of Earth taken on February 14, 1990, by the Voyager 1 space probe from an unprecedented distance of over 6 billion kilometers. Earth appears as a tiny dot within deep space: the blueish-white speck almost halfway up the rightmost band of light. Carl Sagan eloquently captured this idea: 

Look again at that dot. That’s here. That’s home. That’s us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every “superstar,” every “supreme leader,” every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there-on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam.
The Earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. Think of the endless cruelties visited by the inhabitants of one corner of this pixel on the scarcely distinguishable inhabitants of some other corner, how frequent their misunderstandings, how eager they are to kill one another, how fervent their hatreds. Think of the rivers of blood spilled by all those generals and emperors so that, in glory and triumph, they could become the momentary masters of a fraction of a dot.
Our posturings, our imagined self-importance, the delusion that we have some privileged position in the Universe, are challenged by this point of pale light. Our planet is a lonely speck in the great enveloping cosmic dark. In our obscurity, in all this vastness, there is no hint that help will come from elsewhere to save us from ourselves.
The Earth is the only world known so far to harbor life. There is nowhere else, at least in the near future, to which our species could migrate. Visit, yes. Settle, not yet. Like it or not, for the moment the Earth is where we make our stand.
It has been said that astronomy is a humbling and character-building experience. There is perhaps no better demonstration of the folly of human conceits than this distant image of our tiny world. To me, it underscores our responsibility to deal more kindly with one another, and to preserve and cherish the pale blue dot, the only home we’ve ever known.

His words remind us of the fragility and unity of our existence when viewed from a cosmic perspective.

The Big Picture: Beyond Thinking

 Solving a jigsaw puzzle or crafting a business strategy by considering the larger context is not the same as seeing the Big Picture. The Big Picture is not merely an accumulation of knowledge or a stitching together of smaller views. It is an epiphany—a moment of awakening that creates new understanding. This understanding transcends words and concepts; it is a change in being, an irreversible transformation. Once seen, the world can never be viewed the same way again.
 
The Inner Big Picture
 
Must one travel to outer space to see the Big Picture? Not at all. The Big Picture resides within our minds. It is an inner awakening, a shift in consciousness. Some may call it the “Third Eye,” but I prefer to think of it as Enlightenment. 
 
During deep meditation, when our conceptual frameworks dissolve, we see reality as it truly is. Our conscious mind is conditioned to perceive the world through labels and categories, but these distinctions are illusions born of sensory limitations. When these barriers fall away, the Big Picture emerges. This is Enlightenment—the lighting up of the mind that dispels the darkness of ignorance. 
 
In this state, we realize that the “others” we once perceived as separate are, in fact, extensions of ourselves. This interconnectedness is difficult to articulate, yet its truth is undeniable once experienced. Even a fleeting glimpse can bring about profound transformation.
 
The Consequences of Ignoring the Big Picture
 
Without the Big Picture, life becomes a struggle. The narrow view of “me against the world” fosters conflict and suffering. From the Big Picture perspective, this struggle is revealed as a fight against oneself, both internally and externally. The result is perpetual dissatisfaction and pain.
 
Knowledge vs. the Big Picture
 
Acquiring knowledge across various subjects expands your understanding, but it is not the same as seeing the Big Picture. Gathering puzzle pieces does not guarantee the ability to see the whole image. The Big Picture is not a patchwork of smaller views; it is a unified vision of the entirety.
 
The Need for Big Picture Thinkers
 
The world needs more individuals who see the Big Picture. Such people act with compassion and wisdom, recognizing the interconnectedness of all life. They do not perpetuate conflict but nurture others and the environment as extensions of themselves. They carry within them a sense of peace and joy, knowing that they are part of a greater whole.

Conclusion

 The Big Picture is not just a way of thinking—it is a way of being. It transforms how we see the world, how we relate to others, and how we navigate life’s challenges. By cultivating this perspective, we move beyond fragmentation and conflict, embracing a unified vision of existence. In doing so, we not only enrich our own lives but also contribute to a more harmonious and compassionate world.
 

Ingrid Goes West (2017)

Director: Matt Spicer
Actors: Aubrey Plaza, Elizabeth Olsen

This is a film that shows how things can go from bad to worse when you are not being authentic about yourself, when you try to be like someone else and when you try too hard to make that someone else like you.

Ingrid is a young girl attracted to the life of social media influencers. She keeps following their posts and also stalking them in person, trying to emulate them and become famous like them. Being jealous of one influencer, she sprays pepper in her eyes on her wedding day, for which she is sent to a facility for psychological treatment.

Once she comes back from the recovery, she is attracted to another influencer Taylor who lives in Los Angeles. Ingrid gets a huge sum of money in inheritance from her mother and uses that to shift to LA near Taylor. In order to get acquainted with Taylor, she even kidnaps her pet dog and pretends to find it and return it to her to become friends.

Being obsessed with Taylor, Ingrid goes to great lengths to develop closer friendship with Taylor and be a part of her society and circle. She reads the same books, uses the same cosmetics as Taylor and even accidently lands up in the same parties as Taylor.

Taylor’s brother Nikki finds Ingrid’s actions very suspicious and discovers that she is even using Taylor’s birthday as her phone’s password. When Nikki tries to blackmail Ingrid to stay away from Taylor, Ingrid tries to scare Nikki with the help of her boyfriend Dan, who she was forced to make her boyfriend when Taylor insisted on bringing him, but ended up almost killing Nikki.

Eventually, her cover is blown and although she tries hard to win back the friendship of Taylor, she realizes it is all over. Left with no choice, she records a video for the social media before consuming sleeping pills.

Luckily Dan sees the post and calls 911. While recovering in the hospital, Dan tells Ingrid that her post went viral and she herself has become a social media celebrity for being authentic about herself. She even got her own hashtag. That brings a smile on Ingrid’s face. 

Being Authentic

I doubt there is anyone who has not been rubbed off by the pernicious influence of social media. Continuously browsing social media sinks us deeper into our darker selves. Various emotions, mostly negative, are sub-consciously evoked without our being aware of them. And then our actions are provoked by those emotions and we don’t understand why we become irritable or angry when nothing in our surroundings gives us any reason to be so.

Watching posts on social media makes us feel that the whole world is having fun and everyone is so damn successful while I alone am a loser. If I am not aware of this phenomena, then I am sucked into it. I need to show to others I am also having fun and I am also someone who can get likes and appreciation. So I will post content just for the sake of getting likes and then will keep an eye on how many likes I got and who liked it and who commented on the post. It becomes an addiction very soon.

If you happen to fall in love with a person and their social media posts, it could get ugly. At this moment, we can say that it is not just about social media. Many people go to great lengths to be like the film actors they idolize. They will wear the same kind of clothes, eat the same food, copy their mannerisms and way of walking and speaking. They start living a false life. They don’t be themselves but pretend to be like their idol.

Living a false life is always unsatisfactory. You need constant stimulation. If you don’t see that person for a day, you will start to get withdrawal symptoms. If you are used to getting a response to your post within seconds, then you will be agitated if you don’t get a reply within the first few minutes.

Ingrid was lucky that Taylor discovered her pretense and she was brave enough to admit it. Committing suicide is not the option but dying to the false self is surely the right way. It takes tremendous courage to face oneself as one is with all the inner ugliness. Aubrey Plaza is simply superb as Ingrid.

I haven’t been living a glamorous life in LA… I’m just a loser. I’m pathetic… I know there’s something wrong with me but I don’t know how to fix it and I don’t know how to change and I just don’t think I can change. So maybe I’m just maybe this is just who I am and maybe I’m just tired of trying to make people like me and I’m tired of pretending like I’m someone I’m not and I’m tired of being alone and I’m just tired of being me. So I just I feel like if you don’t have anyone to share anything with them what’s the point of living. Yeah so I guess I’m just making this video just so you guys can see the real me at last.

My Journey to Being Authentic

There was a time early in my career where I completed the Johari Window exercise. It came as a shock to me to get some feedback that I was not expecting. I was always pretending to be a good person and when it became clear that others were seeing through to the real me, I felt very ashamed of myself. At first, I denied the feedback, saying it was all a conspiracy to blame me. But in moments of self-reflection, I knew who I was in reality. All my efforts to keep pretending to be a good person and making others like me was futile. I could relate very much to what Ingrid was going through.

In the normal course of life, we are always pretending to be someone, to be good enough, to be capable, to be competent. That is an image we create for ourselves. And then we do everything possible to protect it. We can go to any lengths to prevent people finding out our real selves, which we believe is bad deep within.

There is a lot to gain in terms of one’s spiritual growth if one gathers the courage to face one’s real self someday.

The Trap of Spiritual Pride

Human beings all over the world live a troubled life. Externally they may put up a show of happiness and joy but internally, there are issues to which they don’t have any answer, any response. If you really see clearly, all the striving for excitement is only an excuse to get away from the things or people which cause hurt.

All people want happiness for themselves. They seek for it in experiences, in work, in play, in books, in spirituality, in travel, in food, in relationships. Yet they don’t get lasting happiness. It is fleeting. So people have to constantly strive for getting it – running after one thing and then another.

Mostly people don’t have time to find the root cause of their issues. They are satisfied with fake instant solutions, even though the real problems are simmering deep down. The idea seems to be to get through life with as little problems and as much enjoyment as possible. All they are worried about in any scenario is what they can get out of it.

There may be at times inner promptings to them to seek something deeper, something of significance but such promptings are quickly brushed aside since they tend to slow them down. So most people in fact the majority of people are living in utter ignorance of the truth and reality. Maybe it is supposed to be that way.

But for the few who are inclined to go deeper at the cost of what other people may think of them, the realization of who they are awaits them. And it is every bit worth the effort.

So what makes a person inclined to go deeper? What makes him stop and question what is going on? What makes him reject the instant responses which earlier were his pet solutions? Probably there is some realization of the hollowness of such things. Something triggered such a realization – a deep emotional hurt or a physical loss of someone. The traditional answers no longer make sense.

Only in this situation, a person attempts to see directly without any explanation, without any support of books and teachings. He feels he is lost unless he is able to find that higher meaning to all that is happening. He will discern all answers carefully without trusting anyone. And it is possible that one day he may become enlightened and realize the full meaning of everything.

But has his heart changed? Not sure still. If he has been seeking enlightenment only for himself, he will still be bound with the last chain. His heart is still self-centered. He may want to share his teachings with others but he will not be able to do so. He will get a feeling of superiority – of having discovered the ultimate and others don’t know about it.

Such a realization does not generate compassion because the person is concerned with his own success. He may ignore others and go into a shell, become a recluse, staying away from society which is not up to his standards. He has discovered the ultimate with his own efforts and unless others put in the same effort, they will not realize that. He is willing to help but he wants others to approach him as a realized master. He has the feeling of entitlement that the world must respect such an individual who has realized the Buddha. This is spiritual pride.

One cannot let go of it with effort. Spiritual pride can go unnoticed for years altogether. The only way to discover it and accept it is by realizing that one is still suffering, one still is seeking followers and recognition, not for material success but for spiritual success. It is all the same game.

How silly. How shameful. How vain this all is.

If one really accepts oneself with all one’s faults, one becomes humble. One realizes the danger of what one is doing and becomes mindful of what one says and does. One realizes that he has never changed. He has been the same always all these years despite the glimpses of enlightenment, which were nevertheless genuine.

To live is to live consciously every moment, fully aware. One cannot be mechanical in this. Once awake, try not to go to sleep. Be aware of the inner promptings and follow them, instead of measuring one’s success on the spiritual ladder.

There is no enlightenment that one can talk about or teach others. One can only live an awakened life – a life of love and care.

Infinite Possibilities

Every moment has infinite possibilities. You can do one of a billion things right now.

However, the moment you decide, the moment you conclude, you stop being aware of those possibilities. You then just want to follow the conclusion; execute the decision.

The moment you decide to go to the office, or decide to write something or decide to take a shower, all those infinite possibilities collapse into one – the thing you have chosen to do.

But the moment you regain your awareness of your decision, you might have access to those infinite possibilities once again.